Swallowing, she looks up at him. She's a bit surprised when he just joins her at the table to start figuring her mess of debt out. When he tells her that they will just figure it out, she offers a small nod. It's not hard to see that he's still not particularly happy with her, but she's not entirely sure whether he's unhappy about the debt, or the fact that she's been keeping it from him. She starts to think it's the later as soon as he mentions that she can't keep these things from him.
On multiple occasions it's dawned on her how little she knows about co-inhabiting a place with a boyfriend. Even she and Finn hadn't had to deal with any of these stressors because they'd never lived together. She can picture Finn's silent treatment after criticizing her for the mistake until he deemed it a good time to talk to her again. Jesse on the other hand is facing this head on, and she's struck by the difference. Even if he's mad at her, he's not walking away or criticizing her. It makes it a little easier to let her guard down.
"I know...I just..." She was working so hard to stand strong and be a functional adult making responsible choices and here she was messing up again. She starts to gather some of the papers and pushes them towards him. "When I came back to New York, I had a plan. Just like I always have a plan. And I was going to go to college, on my own, and get back to Broadway on my own. I've relied on so many people, so I just thought I could prove to myself I could be strong without anyone else." She lets out a sigh, not meeting his eyes.
"Then, we were seeing each other more and more, and we were falling in love, and I wanted to be a part of your life, and I wanted you to be a part of mine. But I feel like I bring nothing to the table. I'm just a college student, I turned down a huge Broadway role for a college career and I've questioned that the more we mix our lives. But right now I don't make money. My savings from Funny Girl are practically depleted. So I have basically nothing and yet I'm living in this gorgeous apartment with you, paying almost nothing while you bring in a sizable check every week to pay for everything. I thought I could at least get on top of my debts, but I'm drowning in those too. How can we ever be equals if you are giving me everything and I have nothing."
She tries not to cry, but it's tough, because it does add to her feelings of failure. "I didn't want to burden you with this too. I'm so sorry, I promise I'll do better. I won't buy a single dress or pair of shoes until I pay off every last penny, I swear." When desperate, she did have a tendency to make rather grandiose promises.
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On multiple occasions it's dawned on her how little she knows about co-inhabiting a place with a boyfriend. Even she and Finn hadn't had to deal with any of these stressors because they'd never lived together. She can picture Finn's silent treatment after criticizing her for the mistake until he deemed it a good time to talk to her again. Jesse on the other hand is facing this head on, and she's struck by the difference. Even if he's mad at her, he's not walking away or criticizing her. It makes it a little easier to let her guard down.
"I know...I just..." She was working so hard to stand strong and be a functional adult making responsible choices and here she was messing up again. She starts to gather some of the papers and pushes them towards him. "When I came back to New York, I had a plan. Just like I always have a plan. And I was going to go to college, on my own, and get back to Broadway on my own. I've relied on so many people, so I just thought I could prove to myself I could be strong without anyone else." She lets out a sigh, not meeting his eyes.
"Then, we were seeing each other more and more, and we were falling in love, and I wanted to be a part of your life, and I wanted you to be a part of mine. But I feel like I bring nothing to the table. I'm just a college student, I turned down a huge Broadway role for a college career and I've questioned that the more we mix our lives. But right now I don't make money. My savings from Funny Girl are practically depleted. So I have basically nothing and yet I'm living in this gorgeous apartment with you, paying almost nothing while you bring in a sizable check every week to pay for everything. I thought I could at least get on top of my debts, but I'm drowning in those too. How can we ever be equals if you are giving me everything and I have nothing."
She tries not to cry, but it's tough, because it does add to her feelings of failure. "I didn't want to burden you with this too. I'm so sorry, I promise I'll do better. I won't buy a single dress or pair of shoes until I pay off every last penny, I swear." When desperate, she did have a tendency to make rather grandiose promises.