[ Woah that's a lot to take in, and she's not sure how he means for it all to sound. Then he tells her she's perfect and she realizes that no he isn't mad at her in that wall of text. ]
I'm sorry Jesse, this is why I don't like talking about it, or bringing up those insecurities. I don't want you to feel bad or guilty or anything like that, because I know whatever it all was it was really hard on you. I guess I also just have all these insecurities that nag at me, especially when we joke about things. This wasn't a ploy to get you to call me perfect.
It's important, Rachel. Even if I feel guilty for hurting you like I did, it's not unbearable, and it shouldn't stop us from talking things out. I want you to be able to tell me how you're really feeling, I want you to feel like we can talk about anything. And I know it wasn't a ploy. I'm just saying the truth.
I guess that's fair. I don't like that I have residual feelings about it, and I want you to know I don't hold it against. I guess I just still blamed myself for some of it. A lot of it maybe. I know I can be a lot, and I spent a lot of time wondering how I could have kept. I think sometimes I worry history might repeat itself. But I never looked at it from the perspective that it might have been that you weren't strong enough then. And even if you weren't, it's understandable.
I will fully own up to being a weak little bitch, especially if it can make you see that none of it was your fault. It was a fucked up situation I"ve regretted ever since. I'm not going to let go of you ever again.
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I'm sorry Jesse, this is why I don't like talking about it, or bringing up those insecurities. I don't want you to feel bad or guilty or anything like that, because I know whatever it all was it was really hard on you.
I guess I also just have all these insecurities that nag at me, especially when we joke about things.
This wasn't a ploy to get you to call me perfect.
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And I know it wasn't a ploy. I'm just saying the truth.
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I guess I just still blamed myself for some of it.
A lot of it maybe. I know I can be a lot, and I spent a lot of time wondering how I could have kept.
I think sometimes I worry history might repeat itself.
But I never looked at it from the perspective that it might have been that you weren't strong enough then. And even if you weren't, it's understandable.
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It was a fucked up situation I"ve regretted ever since.
I'm not going to let go of you ever again.